I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.
I heard the song “Times” by Tenth Avenue North today. I have not heard this song in a while and it took me back to my darkest moments after losing Evie. This song brought me so much comfort during the loss. I was experiencing many painful and raw emotions and felt shameful at times because most of them were directed at God. It comforts me knowing that I can come to Him in my most vulnerable moments and He will still accept and love me, no matter what. He loves me perfectly without strings attached. This song is such a powerful illustration of God’s unconditional love, grace and mercy. He doesn’t care how pretty I am, what emotions I bring to Him or how much I follow the rules. He is big enough to handle whatever I express to Him. God knows me better than I know myself so why not bring everything to Him? He just wants me, all of me and in return He gives me His love and mercy that never ends. Only God can find a way to love us this much. I am so use to human conditional love that I have a difficult time grasping the concept of how much God truly loves me. I am not sure if it is even humanly possible for us to fully comprehend this kind of love here on this broken earth. Thankfully, I am starting to get a better grasp on how wide and long and high and deep Christ's love is for me...
I hear You say,
"My love is over. It's underneath.
It's inside. It's in between.
The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel.
The times that you question, 'Is this for real? '
The times you're broken.
The times that you mend.
The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it's underneath.
It's inside, it's in between.
These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks.
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace.
The times you're hurting.
The times that you heal.
The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal.
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame.
I'm there through your heartache.
I'm there in the storm.
My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone.
I don't care where you fall, where you have been.
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends.
It never ends."