Random Thoughts

      I’m running on an hour of sleep today. ER with Addy for a few hours last night. Croup is no joke. Poor baby. I absolutely hate it when she's this sick. Kids with vomit bags surrounded us. One kid actually puked, but that was enough for me. If you know me well you know I'm a germaphobe. If you know me really well you know I hate puke! I was not really prepared to face one my fears last night. Silver lining: These sick babies got the best care ever and will quickly get back to health. So thankful for pediatric nurses. They’re a gift from God. Addy also got some really great meds. They're working already. She's on the mend and eating lots of popsicles. Very fussy and cranky this morning, but wanted to just cuddle up with me. I really enjoyed the closeness of her wrapped in my arms. I’ll want these moments back one day. Got bleach on my very favorite shirt. I’m still wearing it. I wore it to my appointment. It’s an awesome color (it brings out my eye color) minus the bleach stain. And, it fits perfectly around my pregnant belly. I refuse to stop wearing it. I ran out the door without a jacket. Is it really Spring? Note to self: Check the weather before leaving house without a jacket, genius. Silver lining: If I were wearing my jacket, there would've been bleach on it too. Note to self: Collect old jackets to give to those that don't have jackets. I hope I really do it this time. Oh, time. Precious time. What I fill with my precious time these days. Trying to make doc appointment and left cell phone in garage. Had to go back and get it. Danny didn't know I came back. He called asking me if I'd ever experienced the garage door going up and down on its own before. I was going to mess with him, but didn't have the energy. He thought we had a ghost or a really smart rat. He makes me laugh. Rewarded myself with a chicken biscuit with cheese from Chick-fi-la. Hey, it’s the small things. I may continue to reward myself today with a chocolate hazelnut frozen yogurt waffle cone at Pinkberry. Another one of my guilty pleasures. Got to see our sweet Asher on the big screen.... it’s so amazing every time I get to see him on an ultrasound. We got a 3D this time. He was absolutely gorgeous! I can't wait to meet him. My crazy morning ended with happy tears and a sigh of relief. Just basking in the moment. I was reminded of Scripture: “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” I then had another thought. Jesus saying in a tender voice "my sweet girl, don’t worry about the other things going on around you. Enjoy what I’ve given you. What's right in front of you. Don’t lose sight of what I’ve done for you. These are the moments that count.” So true…. so very true. There's going to be so many more crazy days like this when Asher gets here. Some days when I feel I don't have it all together and I'm a mess. Some days when I feel inadequate. Some days when I feel like pulling my hair out. And, some days when I’m thankful for the days that do go smoothly. But, it’s all worth it. My kids are here to remind me of sweet blessings. A mom’s job can be the hardest. At the same time, it can be the most fulfilling, most rewarding job in the world. It's honestly one of the best things I've ever done. I wouldn't have it any other way.